On my own....

Although you are not near me, I still can feel you. I imagine your sweet embrace; your arms holding me close and reminding me that you are still here. My love for you will never leave. It will not fade, it will not diminish.

I imagine each of your kisses as a promise; a promise we both make to be true, devoted, and to love unconditionally. A promise that our lives and souls will always be intertwined and committed as one!

Without you, I feel lost. You bring the spark to my life. You motivate me to be better, to be strong, not just for myself but for us! You are the one my heart wants to spend my life with. You make my life worth living. Will you live this dream with me again?

I invest my love, my emotion, all that I am to you! I offer gifts from my heart. I offer my devotion and fidelity to you! Will you accept it?

Although there is still some hurt that is felt, I too feel the guilt of my actions weighing down on my shoulders. It's not a matter of necessity, but a desire to share my future and life's precious moments with you.

But today, I am left on my own. This time will help bring things to focus. If this is what will help bring us closer and mend our love, then it is what needs to be done. As you've said before, we need to go through the storm if we want to see the rainbow.

Now is that storm. I will wage through it with you. I will be strong and patient for you..for me...for us! And when the storm passes, we will be able to experience again the joys that God has brought for us.

I have seen you grow. I have seen your new found strength! I have seen the efforts that you have made to give it another try, and I am grateful. They do not go unnoticed. I thank you for the gift of your love that you have given me. I pray that it will be a gift that we continue to give each other throughout our lifetime.

But until that time, we will be on our own. Each day without you, I will dream that you are beside me. Each day I want to talk or see you, I will look upon our pictures; they paint a thousand words each. Each picture will tell me a story.

But remember that you are strong. You have overcome some of those obstacles. Please, "Don't Stop Beleiving...hold on to that feeling"!

I love you always and forever, my husband!