The soundtrack of my life

Is it sadistic to say that when I'm down, I like to listen to depressing, sappy music? People sometimes say to me, "Why you making yourself feel even worse?". As I see it, I find it very therapeutic. Yeah, it makes me fall farther down the spiral but, once you reach rock bottom, where else can you go? You can't go any further than the bottom. The only way from there is up! It's quite humbling actually. When you have nothing else, you rely on God for strength and guidance. Sometimes it's easier to figure out what needs to happen because you can see all of the obstacles stand in your way when you look up.

I'll be honest. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I'm confused by everything. I'm missing you. I'm complicated, I know. I'm a hand full. I'm lost. You offered to stick through it all, and I turned my back. You are not selfish but selfless. I'm lost and I want you to help guide me once again.

But as I sit here patiently, I'll listen to the the soundtrack of my life:

Therapy by India.Arie

He Heals Me by India.Arie

Come Back to Me by Utada Hikaru

Better in Time by Leona Lewis

Jesus Take the Wheel by Carrie Underwood

I Hate Myself for Losing You by Kelly Clarkson

A Better Man by Shayne Ward

Something Worth Living for by Shayne Ward

I'm sure there will be volume 2! LOL

Please Lord, show me the way. Amen.