Performance Anxiety

It's official...I'm nervous. I'm having anxiety. My half marathon is less than a week away. Am I prepared? Is my body well enough to run? I haven't really been able to train as much as I have been. My new shoes....have I broken them in enough? So many questions to think about and answer; it's nerve racking.

I've been trying my best this past week to prepare for this. When I think about it, I have been training for this for about 5 months now. Wow....has it really been 5 months of training and dedication? But I know my reasons for doing this and I will prove not only to myself, but to others I am ready to make the sacrifices.

That's really one of the things that I did need to improve upon in my life. Everything that has happened up to this date since last December had made me realize I have to humble myself. I am blessed that I have many privileges that some don't. I can't afford to be selfish. I have no reason to be impatient. I've thought about myself instead of others. But that has all changed now. I've learned what that many of my faults have made me lose in a big way. And as I struggle and continue to prove, I will continue to sacrifice. Following in the steps of Jesus, I will also sacrifice my body. In this sense, I will sacrifice my body through running and raising money and funds for important causes. Next run/walk/race I would like to do is the AIDS Walk OC, and most definitely the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer.

So, this weekend, there are no excuses. No easy way out. No trying to get out of it. I made a dedication, I made a commitment. As scared as I am that my body will break, I will push through and endure through the tears, sweat, and pain. I know my love will give me strength!