Lost, and hoping it will all get Better in Time

Lost in time and space,

Trying to answer questions I don't want to face,

My thoughts keep floating 'round and 'round,

They just keep piling up to a mound,

Found, 

I'm afraid I am not,

But left to rot,

I need a shot of something to start it up,

And hopefully there will be something left,

To work on.

I really don't know what I want in life.  These few months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds, I've been trying to figure it out.  I can't have myself in two worlds.  I can't be torn between two people.  I have no direction.  I got the keys but no destination to be quite honest.

There are many questions I need to answer.  Many actions that I need to take consequences for.  I think I've made a few decisions, but am I making the right ones?  Will these decisions benefit me in the long run?  Do I give up an opportunity for something that might be, or do I try to salvage remains?  It's hard to let go, but sometimes we need to.  

Do I know what I want?  Apparently not.  There is a plan for me, I just know it.  I believe in it.  I don't know what it is.  But I trust God that it will be good.

It will all get better in time...right Leona?  Some of the lyrics really hit me hard.  Although I can never forget everything that has happened, I do deserve a lot of the flack I've been receiving.  

But have I learned a lesson?  Probably not yet.  Will I? Most likely yes!

I know I'll be alright in the end.  I do believe that people have destinations planned out for them, but they have a choice of what to do before they arrive there.  Am I taking the direct route, or the scenic route?